Ubertension

Yesterday at the clinic my BP reading was rather high. The doctor said my BP indicates that I MIGHT have hypertension. 

I told my Deputy Director today that I'm suffering from hypertension. He said he has it too. I said "wow, you're totally not self-inlvolved... I'm so sorry Doc..."

To address this, I need to be mentally positive. It's hard to do that when you're a hater. Everything around me is wrong. Everything my manager asks me to do annoys me. Attractive people tick me off for being attractive around me.Tele-marketers send me off the edge with their incessant calls offering great deals I don't need. A sandwich that is not generously filled makes me upset - stingy cafeteria workers. What the hell? It's not like they own the cafeteria. Urghhh.  These people seriously have issues...

I stress too much. 

When I'm stressed out I eat. When I eat I get fat. Fat me feels stressed out. Stressed out and fat, I eat more. I get fatter. I feel like no one likes me anymore because I'm fat. I get stressed out because I feel lonely. So I eat more...

Next week I will tell my Deputy Director that I don't wanna work with my manager anymore. She's killing me slowly, if not with her attitude and incompetency, it's with the stress she's been causing me.  "Doc, do you wanna see blood on your hands?? DO YOU? No? Then lemme work with someone else." 

Let's see how Doc handles that kinda pressure on him.